My issue with bingeing and with my self-image is weighing me down spiritually. When I don't have peace physically, I don't have peace spiritually. I need spiritual determination to step in where my physical determination falls short (Terkeurst, 2011).
This battle is not just about my physical health, but my spiritual health as well. Binge-eating is sin, and therefore it hinders my relationship with God and separates me from Him. My motivation to break free of this addiction should be out of a desire to obey Him because of my love for Him. Any motivation that is not centered on Him will fall short.
Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10)
I need God to strengthen me, to help me, and to uphold me in my struggle. It is so comforting to know that He promises to do that. The hard part for me is to let Him do that. So many times I try to do things myself and rely on my strength and willpower to accomplish my purposes. I fail every time I rely on myself, yet I continue to do just that. I must surrender everything to God and depend on His strength, for that is the only way I will experience victory.
I did not eat anything after dinner tonight. I got upset at something really stupid (I do that quite often), and the first thing I wanted to do was binge. Bingeing would have temporarily numbed the pain and provided temporary pleasure, but it would have left me feeling guilt, shame, and regret and would have done nothing to fix the problem I was upset about. Only by God's strength did I stand strong during temptation.
No comments:
Post a Comment