Trusting God's Promises

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

This verse seems to be one of the most utilized promises of the bible, and I myself have used it hundreds of time in my own life and when ministering to others. This past year, it has been very hard to trust in this promise. My knee pain seems like it will never go away, I feel like I will never be able to run again, and I am still struggling with binge-eating just like I have been for the past 3 years. I know this promise in my head, but I haven't taken hold of it in my heart. I hate to admit it, but I have even doubted God. I have doubted His sovereignty and love; I have doubted that He sees or hears me; I have doubted that He will work everything together for good. I have doubted because I have not seen. Yet how many times has God fulfilled this promise in my life and in others' lives? How many times has He shown us through His word that He is faithful to His promises? Just because I have not yet seen all the good that will come through these storms in my life does not mean that I cannot trust that good will come. God has already brought good out of my knee injury, but I have been so focused on the pain and my inability to run that I do not see the good.

Even though binge-eating is sin, good has still come out of it and will continue to do so. This struggle keeps me aware of my utter weakness and helplessness without Christ. It leads me to turn to Him and to depend on Him for strength, although I don't always do so. I also believe that God will use this chapter in my life as a testimony to others. One of my mentors struggled with binge-eating when she was my age and overcame it and is now helping me to overcome it as well. I hope that one day this struggle can become a testimony that may help others dealing with similar problems.

I know in my head that God works all things for good, but I need to believe it in my heart and trust that He is faithful to fulfill His promises, even when I cannot see it.