Day 8: No Big Deal

Overeating seems to be a commonly overlooked sin in our society. We don't see it as bad as we see pride, selfishness, or worldliness (although these have also become more acceptable). Yet God sees gluttony as He does every other sin. Because I have committed this sin so many times, I have become desensitized to it, almost numb to the fact that it is sin. There are certain sins that I would never think of doing because they are deemed the "bad sins," but for some reason, there are other sins that don't seem like a big deal, partly because the consequences may not be very severe (at least, the immediate consequences). All sin is rebellion against God and breaks His heart. I want to see sin the way God does. I want my heart to be broken over the things that break His heart. Knowing that gluttony is sin should keep me from bingeing, yet many times it doesn't. I need to grow deeper in my love for God in order to have the desire to do what pleases him and to hate the things that don't please Him.

There have been times when I have told people about my struggle with binge-eating, and they don't see it as a big deal; everyone has their struggles and everyone overeats. Well, this struggle is a big deal because it leads to "big" emotions: disgust and frustration with myself, shame, regret, inadequacy, and defeat to name a few. I often feel like a failure because I continue to struggle with this sin, but "whenever we feel defeated by an issue, it can prevent us from following God completely" (Terkeurst, 2011). I have to remind myself that I am not a failure in God's sight, and I have not been defeated by this struggle. I can overcome this through Christ and the strength and power He provides, if I surrender myself completely to Him.